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5 Oh My Stars to Before I Let You In I saw an ecstatic teaser from my friend Melisa and knew I had to read Before I Let You In asap Not only did I have it in my hot little hands the same day I devoured it in 24 hours The scoop Before I Let You In is about three close friends who seem to have it all Bea is single and enjoying it Eleanor is happily married with kids Karen is a psychiatrist in a long term relationship One day a new patient of Karen s starts offering information piece by piece that could only be about Karen and her friends Shake all those ingredients up and BAM Explosions in all kinds of directionsSo what I may have figured out most of the twists before they were revealed but it did not matter I had to keep reading because 1 The book is perfectly written with exceptional pacing 2 You bet your sweet bippy I had to know if I was right Bottom line Before I Let You In is a fresh thriller in a market where that s not always easy Having a main character as a psychiatrist instantly lured me in and I enjoyed every racing heartbeat I experienced playing detective while devouring this remarkable story Thank you to Jenny Blackhurst please keep writing AtriaEmily Bestler Books and Netgalley for the ARC Before I Let You In is now available Before I Let You In My reviews can also be seen at Eleanor and Bea have been best friends since they were little Now in their thirties they are all living very different lives Karen has a serious boyfriend Eleanor is married with children and Bea is singleBut they are always there for each other They know everything about each other Or at least they think they do The truth is they are all keeping secretsEleanor loves being a mother though she is still getting used to it She has also been forgetting things lately and Eleanor NEVER forgets things It must be because she s tired She wonders what her friends would think if they knew the truth Eleanor the star Eleanor the super mum Eleanor the selfish lying actress Bea loves being singleshe says She can do what she wants when she wants Though there are times that she s lonely And lately things have happened that have triggered memories of her past things she thought she put behind her The nightmares that she hasn t had in a long time are back and she wakes screaming Don t godon t godon t go Karen is a psychiatrist She s also the fixer when it comes to her friends Her friends know they can rely on her She s proud of what she has achieved She loves her job her boyfriend and her friends But Karen has some secrets of her ownKaren is about to meet a new client Jessica Hamilton All she knows is that Jessica is twenty three years old and that she has been having tension headaches and irrational thoughts When they first meet the first thing Jessica says is You can t fix me Jessica is aggressive and seems to want to challenge Karen The Jessica talks the unsettled Karen feels Things Jessica says hit a bit too close to home Jessica likes to shock Karen with her answers and seems to know uite a bit about Karen s private lifeBut how could that be How could Jessica possibly know so much about Karen AND her friends Or could this just be a coincidence Are the people in her life in danger And if so what can Karen do about it Well this was uite a book I enjoy stories about friendship and I liked the fact that these women had been friends since early childhood When you ve known someone so long you really think you know all there is to know about thembut that s not always the caseJenny Blackhurst has written a story that shows just how complex friendship can be This novel has it all secrets betrayal and obsession This was an excellent read with well developed interesting characters and a gripping plotI devoured this novel I had so many different ideas about what was going on that I just had to see if I was right about any of them This was a compelling and intense read Though I was correct about a few things some great twists caught me by surprise and I was shocked by how it all played out Before I Let You In was my first read from Jenny Blackhurst This was an excellent psychological suspense novel that pulled me in from the start and held my interest until the very last page I am excited to read from this talented authorI d like to thank Atria Books and NetGalley for giving me the opportunity to read this book in exchange for my honest review Before I Let You In Three best friends Karen Bea and Eleanor They are always there for each other In a heart beat they d drop whatever they re doing to help I mean that s what best friends doright Karen is busy creating a successful psychiatrist practice and another new client just walked through the door Only this new client seems to want than a therapy session from Karen It s not long before she realizes this patient will rock the foundation of the tight bonds between these 3 women Told from points of view of all three friends The storyline weaves back and forth between the women as they desperately struggle to hold on to their friendship and their families Lies will be revealed leaving all three wondering how well they ever really knew one another If indeed they ever didThis was my first read from this author and I just loved how she effortlessly spun the storyline together between these friends I was joyfully hooked from the first chapter and enjoyed it right to the very end Highly recommendA Traveling Sister read with Brenda and Jennifer Thank you to NetGalley Atria Books and Jenny Blackhurst for an ARC to read in exchange for an honest reviewPlease visit Brenda and Norma s fabulous blog for Traveling Sister Group reviews Before I Let You In Holy schmoly man Where have I been Jenny Blackhurst you are one amazing writer You know a book is good when you take the time to stop and thank the author on Facebook for putting out some stunning work which is exactly what I did Fast paced addictive suspenseful couldn t put it down loved it all And can we talk about cover love GorgeousA story about deep seeded long term friendship and how someone comes along who knows way about them than they should I m not saying any as this is all you need to know I was blown away with this one even though I figured out the twist early on seriously wish I could turn of my inner detective and just enjoy the story but it persists usually if I figure it out it s a bummer for me but this one was so good I didn t even careThere are one or two steamy scenes so heads up reader They didn t feel gratuitous at all but definitely complemented the storyline So glad this one is coming to the US Now to go check out this author s other books Seriously where have I been Thank you to Netgalley Jenny Blackhurst and Atria Books for a copy of this fab book in exchange for an honest review45 stars Before I Let You In Thank you to Netgalley and Headline publishing for my ARC in exchange for a fair and honest reviewHold The Front Page Just when I thought the psychological thrillers I ve been reading couldn t get any better along comes Before I Let You In and it just blows me away Karen Eleanor and Bea have been close friends ever since starting school Now as adults they still meet up for coffee on a regular basis and keep in touch in between Karen is the fixer she has always assumed the role of mother hen looking out for her friends and being there for them in times of need This friendship though is about to be overwhelmed by events that will knock the living daylights out of themJenny Blackhurst has written a cracking psychological thriller here it s complex and very clever as she reveals a loose thread within this friendship that will completely unravel in a most scary and devastating manner The characters were great the plot was superb and I believe it deserves every one of those 5 stars that I ve rated it completely and utterly gripping Before I Let You In From the No1 bestselling author of HOW I LOST YOU which Clare Mackintosh called utterly gripping comes a chilling new novel Perfect for fans of Louise Jensen s THE SISTER and Katerina Diamond s THE SECRET Linda Green and Paula HawkinsKaren is meant to be the one who fixes problemsIt s her job as a psychiatrist and it s always been her role as a friendBut Jessica is different She should be the patient the one that Karen helpsBut she knows things about Karen Her friends her personal life Things no patient should knowAnd Karen is starting to wonder if she should have let her in Before I Let You In35 STARSI read Blackhurst s first novel last year and thoroughly enjoyed it it was dark and twisty and emotional all three things I look for in my psychological thrillers Before I Let You In was another well written novel and I think I would classify this as a domestic drama than a thriller of sorts but maybe this was characterized as such due to the nature of some of the unsettling content While I did have the mystery figured out fairly early on the writing was solid and I feel readers who are not as experienced in the psychological thriller genre will be blown away by this one If you enjoy twisty domestic thrillers give this one a go Review copy furnished by the publisher Before I Let You In So apparently I ve been living under a rock since I ve just now established this amazing author Jenny Blackhurst is wonderful SHUT THE FRONT DOOR this book was Fantastical Kendall doing her happy read dance right now Beautiful and glorious 5 stars for this one ladies and gents Just when I thought I wouldn t find a better psychological thriller Before I let you In came along and was a nicely wrapped present under my Christmas tree WOW seriously this left me speechless and blew me away This story is about a trio of girlfriends Eleanor Bea and Karen who have been friends since high school And well haha these ladies are about to have a snowball effect of events that hit the fan literally This has ALL of the things that you want in a psychological thriller1 Main characters that you can easily connect with2 Obsessively turning the pages to continue reading3 Jaw dropping twist that leaves your mouth open for literally 5 minutes not kidding lolI cannot recommend this book enough to all of my friends on here I don t want to dive too much into the plot because I don t want to give anything away I LOVED LOVED this book Jenny has climbed to the top of my favorite authors Looking forward to reading from her Before I Let You In I loved the setup of the Psychiatrist analyzing the patient who was at the same time analyzing the doctor WhoaThe doctors name is Karen and she is very close to her friends Bea and Eleanor They are like three peas in a pod Someone is playing tricks and mind games with them Just who is the crazy one The story spins off into many situations that leaves you wondering who it is You know when you lose things and can t find them and end up feeling a little crazy this is happening to the ladies in some uh umcompromising situationsAn entertaining and fast read even though I had it figured out early on It is twisty with a never ending supply of suspense I would recommend Before I Let You In Listen and help doesn t sound very proactive to me Why is it that people pay you so much money just to act as a brick wall What s so special about you c You can t fix me c Aren t we all uite the Pollyannas cControl s a big point in this novel Control and obsession Lots of thoseKaren well she s not a very good psychologist She basically has way too many issues of her own to be effective in this field Many people will not agree with this POV but that s actually a practice thing Psychologists who want to get to the top and stay there go to psychologists of their own Not just Robert occasionally The jumping POV was a really good thing for this novel A very effective creative solution that allowed it to have the insight into most of the important characters without it feeling too intrusive or plastic or made up The twist not too believable It was like she flew off the handle The ending well Very cramped up and it s probably not making too much sense It was of the she s crazy and therefore she does crazy stuff in crazy ways I know what you re doing I know what you ve done c The crazy viper women strikeShe understood it in the same way as she understood professional men who visited prostitutes it wasn t about the money or the silence it was about the control cEight years of psychiatry had taught her reactions to hover below the surface never breaking through to the onlooker The ultimate poker player c sat back on the chair facing Jessica It was purposely an inch lower than the sofa giving her patients the sense of control many didn t feel in the outside world cJessica Hamilton was no different to anyone else And yet that was how she felt different cKaren couldn t stand bad language it made her feel uncomfortable and insecure She supposed it stemmed from her days at school reminding her of the goody goody she d been afraid to use bad words while the cool kids peppered their conversation with gutter talk Or maybe from before that Long before c I don t think this psychologist is much good with her profession Not with thisI messed with a few things on her calendar made sure she missed a few appointments It made me feel good in control I ve been so busy at work that last week I missed a dentist s appointment and a talk by a leading psychiatrist that I d been looking forward to for months Clean forgot to write them on the calendar I m losing things forgetting things My keys went missing for a week I got new ones cut and do you know where I found them In my underwear drawer God only knows how they got in there It s enough to make you uestion your sanity c Red red herringTravis Yapp was the embodiment of every cuss word Bea had ever uttered Travis had impressed the right people said and done everything that was expected of him Karen didn t like the implication that she hadn t c Seriously This is a special issue that many careerist overachievers shareShe hadn t really believed in the whole glass ceiling thing when she was at university but the doubt she d held so strongly about its existence was beginning to wane cThey teach it on the first day of the Aren t You Glad You Have a Penis course cShe might not have the family she d hoped for as a child but at least she had her career finally she felt her choices were going to be vindicated cObsession It starts slowly like a train pulling out of a station You can still see the houses and trees around you you can still make out the details of people in their windows or dark green tractors in their light green fields then it starts to gain momentum and the houses are still there but the people aren t visible in the windows any Colours start to blur dark green bleeds into light and you realise that if you don t find a way to get off now you are going to spin off the track altogether cA series of unfortunate events that jolted our lives off their tracks Sliding door moments they call them cin that instant I almost felt the flapping of the butterfly wings that would cause a tsunami in our lives cExcitement at doing something that was just for her cHow anyone got through their lives without a set of bullet pointed tasks to guide them she would never understand cWhen did it become socially acceptable to sit in someone s house and hold conversations with people not even in the room How would they react if she got out a book and started reading it in front of them c Love itPeople responded to you differently when you were well turned out you were treated with less suspicion Just because you spent an extra half an hour slicking on some make up on top of the mask you already wore day after day it was assumed you knew what you were doing If you were presentable you must be okay You could maintain a modicum of control cFeeling slightly smug about how much better than her colleagues she was going to feel in the morning she left the office without so much as a backward glance but still keenly aware of the sidelong looks her friends were giving one another cWhen in actual fact she wasn t desperate to be loved by another person all she wanted was to feel the slightest bit of affection for herself Bea wanted to be a success at something Anything cCognitive dissonance wasn t that what Karen called it This feeling that two separate people existed inside her constantly fighting to take control of her thoughts cIt was nothing to do with hiding things she just didn t feel like pretending any than she already was cFacebook Karen thought they might as well have printed out timetables and stuck them up at random bus stops around town along with a miniature map powered by Google and pictures with blurred backgrounds and faded edges cA counterfeit greeting for counterfeit friends pulled together by grim circumstance cI threw on my bright and breezy voice like a silk scarf cThis was the part where our conversation would go one of two ways neither particularly appealing It was a toss up between abusive or suicidal Sometimes it would be both cYour life I told myself through gritted teeth is defined by the rules you have vowed to abide by If you lose sight of those you lose everything It could all come slipping down round you the snowdrift that is your life becoming an avalanche that will bury you alive It wasn t the fear that I could have been caught that caused self loathing to bubble under my surface like tar on a hot road when you have had the worst possible thing happen to you that kind of fear is as ridiculous as being afraid of monsters under the bed I hadn t been caught But I had lost control cThis whole life was warmer than mine It wasn t that she was much better off financially just that her life was richer in colour where mine was grayscale cBut the mind is a wonderful and terrifying machine cI had spent years being made to believe I was a stupid bad person that I couldn t be trusted I had been conditioned to see someone useless and unworthy of love when I looked in the mirror And like a self fulfilling prophecy that was what my life became A life without a future So I clung to what I had c And what happens to you when they don t need you any That s not going to happen she replied confidently They will always need me cPsychology excited her the way the past could account for much of the present the way people s actions could be examined and understood People were literally textbook There was rarely a problem that couldn t be explained by careful assessment of the factors c Before I Let You In OMG Jenny Blackhurst She s has climbed right to the top 10 of my personal charts for reading thrillers After her last book I thought that was brilliant and it was This one was a topic of something else and it just bulldozed along Have you ever thought you were loosing your mind Then put yourself into one of the three women who are the main characters in this bookNew baby young child to take to school Tired MomThen there is Eleanor and Bea Karen is the one that fixes everything except can she fix this problem Karen is a psychiatrist so she knows what s whatdoesn t she Untila new patient arrives in her office needing to sort out her constant headaches but its Karen who is given the headache because this new patient knows about her than Karen will learn about herIts a really good pull me in and lock me away kind of read where you don t want to surface until you finish this bookIts powerful story will keep your lunging from page to page eager to flick to and of its secrets behind the pagesI really loved this book so muchI want to say but don t want to give away the story so I am going to sayThis year has been an AWESOME revelation for some brilliant debut novels and this authors debut novel had me reeling now this one really has put me eager for her next book Before I Let You In .

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